Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Too Good to Be True

Cycle day 28 today. I was so excited this month, I really thought this was it. I had the perfect triphasic looking chart. I started doing pregnancy tests early as usual, and on CD 27, which was 12 DPO, I started to get faint pink lines. I tested first with FMU, and got a tiny pink line on a Dollarama stor cheapie test, and also tested with a internet cheapie test (which that one was big fat negative), but I was still holding on to hope since the $store test clearly had a light pink line.

I then tested a few hours later after holding my pee for as long as I could, and this time both types of tests came up with light pink lines, and the $store test was a bit darker then before. I told myself not to get too excited, as these tese were prone to false positives and evap lines. But how can you not start getting excited? Great high temps, a triphasic chart, and 3 tests showing little pink lines.

Later that night I tried a internet cheapie from earlypregnancytests.com, and it was BFN again. I tried not to worry and just tell myself that it was because I had been drinking some water and my pee was diluted.

But this morning when i tested again, all tests were BFN, and my temperature took a nose dive. I am so sad, and so depressed feeling, yet I can not seem to cry about it. I feel like the emotions are trapped inside screamign to get out. Maybe it's because I am still hoping for a miracle and that I will get clear BFP...but I am pretty sure I am out of the running now, and just waiting for AF to show. Booo

2 comments:

  1. Oh sweetie I'm so sorry. Don't give up yet though. Praying for you!

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  2. Oh Dawn this is terrible! I´m so sorry that the tests went out that way ! I can imagine how you feel and it brakes my heart because I´m so into it. No word can help know so ... keep head up !
    Kisses and hugs ~ Toni

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